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S:Genesis 42:24-25 NASB

He turned away from them and wept. But when he returned to them and spoke to them, he took Simeon from them and bound him before their eyes. Then Joseph gave orders to fill their bags with grain and to restore every man's money in his sack, and to give them provisions for the journey. And thus it was done for them.

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Joseph was done wrong. No doubt about it. There is no such thing as hurtful than to be abandoned bu your own family. I don't know how Joseph did it. How he could look straight in his brothers eyes and not be filled with rage to throw them all into prison. Instead he shows them kindness and refills their sacks with need. I wonder what his weeping was about.  I wish the Bible was a bit more clear on what kind of weeping. Clearly, he trusted till years later, the dream he dreamt. And maybe he was weeping out of gratitude to know that Gods dream and promise came true not to glorify Joseph but as the larger plan to rescue his family.

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I can't stand Kerry and Jane. I really don't know how they can be the way they are and boast about their strong work ethics and how wonderful of a coworker they say they are. No ability to sensr how difficult and disrespectful they make other's worklife. But for whatever reason I can't seem to come even remotely close to what Joseph is doing for his brothers who backstabbed him. He is going above and beyond that. I want to change and let go of that area and it will require constant ..sadly daily forgiving and daily coming to Jesus for strengthen and grace and love. 

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Lord I confess...myheart doesn't want to love Kerry and Jane. I know ever since they made a big ruckus about worj I can't be normal to them and loving like I was before. Help me to changr God. I know that is something you want but my heart resists more than follows. Please soften mg heart GOD. I know you died for them too. And I am forgiven....may I react to that one truth today. In Jesus name amen.